(Random updates at bottom)
I’ve pretty much been overweight my whole life.
Not like obese..but pretty much a chubs from day one.
As far back as I can remember…(prob 3rd grade) I would dream of the day I would be skinny/ normal. I always included it in my prayers. ALWAYS. Even to this day.
I never really developed a taste for fruits & vegetables and my parents never really enforced it anyway. I grew up on a diet of processed foods. I was definitely a meat & potatoes kinda girl. The few fruits I actually did like..I developed an allergy to about age 9. To this day..I am allergic to fresh fruit.
I stopped wearing shorts in Middle School.
From my senior year until about a year after I graduated…I was prob the smallest I had ever been. (This is also the time I met Danny)
I used to think I was so fat then. What I wouldn’t give to have that body back! Ha!
During that time I was about 135-140 lbs.
I really started to pack on the pounds after I moved in with muh man about a year after high school. I wanted to be a good little common law wife…so I fried everything to his heart’s content. Plus less physical activity…it was a recipe for disaster.
I don’t think I have any pics from this time.
Between 2002 & 2004 I had gained about 75 LB’s.
Then add about 55 to that for my pregnancy w/ my 1st beh beh.
After I had Miss Priss in 2005…I only lost about 40 lbs. I never made it under 230.
Fast forward 2 years of yo yo dieting & yo yo weight…& when I had beh beh numba two and I was 3 lbs higher than the day I had numba one.
After my little man muffin was born in 2007..I might have lost 20-30 lbs.
But then…it was a few years of more yo yo and then the scale finally crept up to more than the day I went into the hospital to have my second child.
In July 2010 I was desperate to shed enough weight to feel human in a wedding dress & not have triple chins in my pics.
I sucked it up & spent lots of $$$ to go to Healthy Figures…a diet place. I think I was around 274 when I started there?
I was so strict on that diet. NO CARBS. I only took the supa kick ass diet pills for the first few weeks…once my body got used to the diet..I didn’t need them. I really changed my eating in that 3 months.
After my wedding..I knew I should keep going and losing the weight. I WANTED to lose the rest of the weight badly…but it was such a battle. It was always something that made me start that diet over & over again. Just one cheat weekend. Then it would end up being two weeks before I started the diet again. In that time I would gain & lose. I did end up losing another 10 lbs before the end of year. I think I made it down to around 225. But it after that..it was a constant battle of start the diet, cheat, start over…for the next two years. And so…there I was…gained the whole 50 lbs back…plus some. Worse off then when I started.
About two weeks before I turned 30…I kind of had a FUH-REEEK out moment. And then it clicked. I started yet another diet…except this time it was different. You know when they say a person has to make their mind up…really want it…for the first time…I got it.
When I started that shake diet the scale was at…
I did shakes twice a day & one healthy meal …for about a week…then moved to shakes & soup only. I did that for a month & a half. From Oct 16 to Thanksgiving 2012. The first two weeks were sooooo flippin hard. But my body & my mind adjusted and I got used to it.
The day after Thanksgiving I weighed…
Down 28 lbs. in that month & a half.
I was terrified of the holidays and actually eating REAL food. In the past on the no carbs diet…the minute I ate a carb the pounds stacked right back on faster than they came off.
But basically being on a liquid diet so long shrunk my stomach and I couldn’t really eat that much anyway. So I took advantage of that. I ate very little and very slow.
Still…eating food after not for so long actually made me hit a plateau. I didn’t let that discourage me. I really watched what I ate & tried to really apply small portions.
From Thanksgiving to the end of the year I only lost 10.8 lbs. BUT AT LEAST I LOST.
I started at 276.4 on Oct 16, 2012 and on December 31, 2012 I was 237.6.
38.8 LB’s total.
Hells to the yeah!
That’s in 2 1/2 months people!
It’s still hard. I still struggle. But I’m on my way.
So there you have it. My life long never ending battle with myself.
It’s an everyday battle. Physically & mentally. Mostly mentally.
Blogging about it has really helped me. I feel accountable when I blog it. I feel inspired by others. I like to document & look back at my failures and/or progress.
I’ve really really really debated on whether to post my weight…post before pics..& ect. I struggled with the decision to “put it all out there” for awhile now.
I think people appreciate honesty. They like to see people being real.
Besides..I’ve always thought…people can look at ya & basically guess the number anyway..so what’s the point?
The time is now.
So…here I have layed it all out.
I’m proud of the numbers. Proud they are going down. Proud how far I’ve come and how far I will go.
Thanks for being part of my journey.
All posts pertaining to my weight loss battle, food diary, & scale updates…you can find by clicking on the Project: No Mo Fat Ass button on the right side of my home page.
Update: Fifty Pound Post